God, I just realised how much I don't want to hang out with you people.

Edit (14/11)/
I don't want to go to the formal either.
I wish Danny Pham was going :(

Glee's S03E05 makes me yearn for love. I want to have a first love like that. Not like Rachel and Finn, where she makes it seem like she's giving something to him - but like Kurt and Blaine, where their first time is something special, something they both want.

For a lot of high school students, I think the formal is a night to lose this part of them. But for me, it's not going to happen lulz.

I just really want somebody to love me like that. I want to fall in love with someone, and not care what anybody thinks.

I don't see the point of lecturing me. Just save your breath.

I will clean my room eventually - it hasn't even been a week since the end of HSC and you're already hassling me. Just fucking chill. It will get done. If it bothers you so fucking much, don't come into my room.

It isn't my fucking fault that nobody's replied to me. I have applied at places. I have been calling David Jones. It is not my fucking fault that they haven't replied.

Stop fucking comparing me to other children. I am not K. I do not want to study medicine. And last I hear - you didn't want me to fucking apply interstate, so if anything, this is not my fault. Also, I told you I didn't want to do medicine. Did you listen to me? No. You told me to go fucking do UMAT anyway. Whose fault is it that I wasted the money & time going there. Not fucking mine.

Sor-fucking-ry I'm not good enough.

Have a fucking cry, because I'm not going to uni for you. I'm going for me. I'm going to see what I want to do in life, what I can offer. I want to experience everything that life can offer. I can't do that with medicine. So too fucking bad.

I said I'd be back after physics... but I just came back from my first recruitment/interview thing! LOL. I don't think it was a formal interview. They just asked about my resume, what I've done, my availability etc. So, the next one is a group interview and I have to buy business attire for it. Eurgh. And then what if I don't get it :(

In the beginning, I had no idea where I was supposed to go. I was like, uh. Do I wait for the store to open.. Or do I go through the staff entrance. And I was really early cos I came at 9. Then I decided to get a cappuccino which was deeeee-licious. Like. Best one I've ever had. Definitely buying from there again. Anyway, I ended up going through the staff entrance and there were all these older people in business suits and I was like ;_; fml, never gonna get the job. Anyway, at 9:30 they asked us to go the rooms where we'd wait for our 'interviews' and I kind-of made friends with the people sitting at my table :). They were telling me about their past jobs and experiences and this is what I've learnt: At Myer, apparently they treat the staff like they're stupid and you only get a 10% discount if you work there, at General Pants Co/Surf Dive n' Ski, it is really harsh. You have individual sales targets and if you don't meet them, you don't get shifts. Like what D: and you're supposed to sell 2.8 items per customer like ;_; and David Jones is the best by far, with 20-30% discounts and the people were really nice LOL.

Anyway, I was 2nd to go to do the 'interview' and I was really nervous. But the lady was nice and I think I did okay :) I'm getting another group interview after HSC, so I think this is the formal one. I have to buy business attire :( after the interview, I was waiting for the lift with the lady who went 1st for the interview. Her name is Cora and she is from the Philippines :) she has 3 children and 6 grandchildren LOL. She was really nice :) We went shopping together for my grey/black skirts but we couldn't find any cheap ones LOL. So we went home. She lives at Rockdale so I took the train home by myself like a loner.

And then I bought lip balm (BUY 2 GET 1 FREE LOL) at Cabra and then I went home.

LOL.

And that was my day. How was yours?

I think that whilst technology can greatly enhance communication and allows people to keep in touch, it just does not match up to human relationships.

I don't know.

I just really miss Vivek.

I am in love with Josh Groban's voice. But as Amy noticed, I am in love with anybody who has a deep enough voice and can sing. /CoughCrissColfer



Okay, that is all.
Bye.

See you after the HSC.
If I don't die after my physics exam.
Which is on 4/11.

90 ATAR coming my way guise